Press your arm into my neck...

I swear I intended for this to be updated far more often than it is!

Another real-life update, I have gone back to college and R is at Uni now, but he's stayed local so that rocks. He's in halls right now, and they're okay - we still have the comical quiet sex problem as the walls are fairly thin and the bed is too damn small! (it's worse than my bed for that!)

It's actually starting to annoy me that so far we have never shared a double bed. I mean, we could do this week - my parents have a double and they're on holiday this week (more on that in a sec) but it would be very very wrong, to do so.

Of course, the fact that we had the house to ourselves meant R came over on friday and left this afternoon. It was good to be able to have sex and not worry about the creaky bed.

He really wants me to play with some of my toys for him and i am thinking about it but wierdly it's something i seem to have some kind of mental barrier to?! it's not as if I'm normally very closed-minded, but on this i seem to have a few issues! Hmm, I'll work on it.

I have some unbelievable marks on me today. Some scratches that havent faded off from friday and most of the bites/bruises are from last night with a few from friday. Most were from biting, but i think some of them on my breasts were from him being pretty darned rough during anal spooning. It was fucking good though. I'm not complaining.

Recent discovery - while spooning, restraining me with his arm across my neck, slightly pressing in as if to strangle me... oh my.

I swear I intended for this to be updated far more often than it is! Another real-life update, I have gone back to college and R is at Uni now, but he's stayed local so that rocks. He's in halls right now, and they're okay - we still have the comical quiet sex problem as the walls are fairly thin and the bed is too damn small! (it's worse than my bed for that!) It's actually starting to annoy me that so far we have never shared a double bed. I mean, we could do this week - my parents have a double and they're on holiday this week (more on that in a sec) but it would be very very wrong, to do so. Of course, the fact that we had the house to ourselves meant R came over on friday and left this afternoon. It was good to be able to have sex and not worry about the creaky bed. He really wants me to play with some of my toys for him and i am thinking about it but wierdly it's something i seem to have some kind of mental barrier to?! it's not as if I'm normally very closed-minded, but on this i seem to have a few issues! Hmm, I'll work on it. I have some unbelievable marks on me today. Some scratches that havent faded off from friday and most of the bites/bruises are from last night with a few from friday. Most were from biting, but i think some of them on my breasts were from him being pretty darned rough during anal spooning. It was fucking good though. I'm not complaining. Recent discovery - while spooning, restraining me with his arm across my neck, slightly pressing in as if to strangle me... oh my.

A slight amendment.

In my intro I said 'I'm single'. This isn't true. I do now have a boyfriend. We'll call him R. Onto the post for today. R stayed over last night. I'm 20 and this (imo) should therefore mean my bf can stay when we like, but while my mum is pretty much fine with it I get the feeling my dad isn't. Still, if i don't ask him, we don't have to confront that, do we? I think he'd be fine with it if R didn't share my bed. I also think neither of my parents would like R nearly so much if they knew i lost my anal virginity to him last night. Still, what they don't know... So today i ordered some things, including some clever little tie things to be tied up in. I always wanted to get more into that but due to a woeful lack of trust in prior relationships it never really took off... A was WAY too vanilla (he wouldnt consider anal, bondage, pain, pretty much anything, tbh) and M, well, she was very into bdsm. But i knew she was a bitch and never could trust her which in my opinion is essential in bondage. I havent asked R if he likes that kind of thing but he seems to have a decent level of kink to him, he's into pain and he fingered my ass without asking so i have a feeling he'll be agreeable ;) which is good. On a final note. I hate living with my parents, for one reason above all others. Sex where you're paranoid about creaking beds is ANNOYING. If mildly comical.

A brief introduction.

I won't give too many details about me. I can only be totally free in what I say here if you don't know who I am. There is no-one I can ever tell all these things to, and even those I could, may not want to know certain details... so you're my confidante. What I will tell you is this. I'm female. I'm 20. I live in england, and I'm a normal girl (whatever that actually is, i'm fairly certain I'm it). I'm single. Watch this space. xox