Update on me and a NYE to remember?

I recieved my Tracey Cox mini rabbit today, which I like to an extent, but I can't see it knocking any of my favourites off the top spot. I also got the TC bullet with it, which I haven't tried yet. The real highlights of the mini rabbit for me are the soft feel - it has a lot more 'squidge' to it than a lot of vibes, and it's dinkiness. It's be great if you were going somewhere - or indeed to use if you or your partner were a little nervous about toys. I wasn't so fond of so much of the vibrations going into my hand, though it has to be said the vibrations are felt all the way up to the top. I really can't complain at a tenner for both. I am loving the buy from wishlists option LH have introduced. (sneaky, why yes!) haha.

I've had a post on LH over the last 2 days about my quite suprising level of shyness. It's something I'm working on and I think if nothing else, it's my duty as a sex blogger to get the hell over myself. The ladies and gents there have came up with some interesting ideas, and excellently understand that while I completely understand R thinks I am gorgeous, that doesn't magically fix a person's worries and issues.

Saying all that, in my mission to have a better level of self confidence, and better self image - as well as be a tad more liberated (really, come on!) I'm hoping that by next week I'll be reporting success. Speaking of, tomorrow I finish my official classes at college for this year - christmas break here I come! I do have some revision sessions next week but it should still free up a bit more time for BED than my weeks normally do. There'll still be plenty of stress for me to work away with my toys though, got 2 major assignments due and an exam all happening the first week im back in January - what a joke!

Oh, awesome, awesome thing... NYE looks set to be spent at a house party with R. I was wanting that, it's a little sad, but this will be my first new year kiss which will mean something...

NK x

I swear I intended for this to be updated far more often than it is! Another real-life update, I have gone back to college and R is at Uni now, but he's stayed local so that rocks. He's in halls right now, and they're okay - we still have the comical quiet sex problem as the walls are fairly thin and the bed is too damn small! (it's worse than my bed for that!) It's actually starting to annoy me that so far we have never shared a double bed. I mean, we could do this week - my parents have a double and they're on holiday this week (more on that in a sec) but it would be very very wrong, to do so. Of course, the fact that we had the house to ourselves meant R came over on friday and left this afternoon. It was good to be able to have sex and not worry about the creaky bed. He really wants me to play with some of my toys for him and i am thinking about it but wierdly it's something i seem to have some kind of mental barrier to?! it's not as if I'm normally very closed-minded, but on this i seem to have a few issues! Hmm, I'll work on it. I have some unbelievable marks on me today. Some scratches that havent faded off from friday and most of the bites/bruises are from last night with a few from friday. Most were from biting, but i think some of them on my breasts were from him being pretty darned rough during anal spooning. It was fucking good though. I'm not complaining. Recent discovery - while spooning, restraining me with his arm across my neck, slightly pressing in as if to strangle me... oh my.