Where I've Been...

Nowhere especially, is the short answer. But between stressing about flat/house viewings, tenancy applications and insurance quotes, things have been more than a little hectic. My stress levels are through the roof and that's more than a little offputting.

The main thing sending my anxiety stratospheric is the whole house move malarky. We have just under 4 weeks left on this contract, and ideally want to leave before that - if nothing else, it makes moving easier. We still have no place to move to. We have the problematic situation of being mature students with monthly income - apparently, that's just no good... there are the agents who outright won't even speak to us, and then there are those who take our applications but pick DSS candidates over us as it's guaranteed rent payment. Things feel very hard right now.

Then, there is the job stuff. Stuff being my lack of one. I really need some income of my own, and we need more cash as a unit generally. To live right now has led to debts going right up - which is exactly the sort of thing that gets to me, so that's hard to handle too. I have a lot of applications in for posts at the moment though - so I'm allowing myself to be at least a tiny bit hopeful.

Finally, there's Uni. I don't know how I feel about it right now, and no-one seems to quite understand my point. Well, some do, to an extent at least. But.. Essentially I'm meant to be moving course soon, and starting at year 1 again. I'm 6.5k down in terms of student debt, and no further forward. Add the credit card and overdraft to that and it isn't nice. And my new course might be better, but I find it hard to know - it's not something I've ever studied before, so maybe it's just another gamble that probably won't even pay off.

But right now it's the first time I've known so many to be proud of me. And I don't want to let anyone down, so I have to find a way.

But that's mostly why I've been quiet. My mojo's been a bit... screwed, recently. It's been hard to write or think or test, And I feel guilty about that.

I'm sure I'll be back on fighting form soon.

NK x

Mmm

I've been too quiet for too long I think! Sorry guys and girls!

A little update on life in general firstly... College is still going well - more results from the latest rounds of exams gave me 2 more distinctions and a merit in the subject I was sure I had failed, so I'm rather pleased to say the least.
I don't remember if I'd mentioned it last time (or hell if I'd even had it then) but I've had an offer from the uni I want to go to, and since then I (and the others) have signed for and paid the deposit on our shared house we're going to live in! Scary news though - the contract is going to start quite a bit earlier than I expected - I had been thinking moving date would be mid September but now it is actually the start of July! It'll be alright though, and I can't wait to share a bed every night with R!

On the subject of R, I was over at his last weekend - as I do most weekends. Largely, the weekend was spent watching dvds, as is common for us. I haven't drank in quite some time though and recently decided to start drinking again - if nothing else, in readiness for my 21st, the summer (which will no doubt be an intoxicated affair) and the train wreck I will become in September/October... Yeah, you guessed - FRESHERS!

After our night out and spending some time at a friends, we got back over to the flat and naturally, the night progressed to much naughtier things... I haven't told him this (his ego is big enough, believe me!) but no man has made me cum as hard as I did when he fingered my ass and sucked my clit. It helps, I think, that he's not afraid to go for a little biting...

On the subject of biting etc though, I have two corkers on me at the moment, but the most impressive thing has to be the scratch and nail impressions on my back - they drew blood and still are bleeding whenever I scratch them! Oops!

Good though, bloody good...

NK x

A mini update

I've been too quiet for too long I think! Sorry guys and girls! A little update on life in general firstly... College is still going well - more results from the latest rounds of exams gave me 2 more distinctions and a merit in the subject I was sure I had failed, so I'm rather pleased to say the least. I don't remember if I'd mentioned it last time (or hell if I'd even had it then) but I've had an offer from the uni I want to go to, and since then I (and the others) have signed for and paid the deposit on our shared house we're going to live in! Scary news though - the contract is going to start quite a bit earlier than I expected - I had been thinking moving date would be mid September but now it is actually the start of July! It'll be alright though, and I can't wait to share a bed every night with R! On the subject of R, I was over at his last weekend - as I do most weekends. Largely, the weekend was spent watching dvds, as is common for us. I haven't drank in quite some time though and recently decided to start drinking again - if nothing else, in readiness for my 21st, the summer (which will no doubt be an intoxicated affair) and the train wreck I will become in September/October... Yeah, you guessed - FRESHERS! After our night out and spending some time at a friends, we got back over to the flat and naturally, the night progressed to much naughtier things... I haven't told him this (his ego is big enough, believe me!) but no man has made me cum as hard as I did when he fingered my ass and sucked my clit. It helps, I think, that he's not afraid to go for a little biting... On the subject of biting etc though, I have two corkers on me at the moment, but the most impressive thing has to be the scratch and nail impressions on my back - they drew blood and still are bleeding whenever I scratch them! Oops! Good though, bloody good...

NK x