Day 35 in the Student Madhouse...

...And 2 of the housemates are trying not to hear the sound of me being spanked. In reality there was no Geordie voice over this morning, but there probably should have been. I'm not actually sure if either of them heard (they weren't in surrounding rooms) but it's not really possible to be spanked quietly is it? Well, if it is, it's fairly pointless as to really get a decent tingle going on, there is pretty much automatically an accompanying "thwack". The initial spanks felt divine. After some time, I turned over and R worked my clit and pushed two fingers inside of my wetness... Then, feeling him spread me open and vulnerable, I feel another spank land, this time on my pussy. Several strikes later and I could have screamed in pure, ecstatic pleasure. Seeing his cock at face level, I needed to taste it. To lick him and suck him. To run my tongue around the head, and down his shaft, and draw him into my mouth, finally feeling his member grow just that extra bit harder, and as he came, feel his load shoot into my mouth... Needless to say, I'm thinking I have found the secret to my enjoyment of giving head. No, not being spanked (though that is more than welcome, especially with how hot the pussy spanking got me), but feeling in control. Me controlling the situation made it erotic, enjoyable and best of all, orgasmic. So, here's to more situations like this morning. Many more.

NK x

P.S. I'm hoping to be back on tomorrow or so, either with a more discussion-y blogpost, or a review. Either way there'll be something soon :)

P.P.S Whoever bought me the Durex Pina Colada Lube from my LoveHoney Wishlist is adorable, and really cheered me up last Saturday when I received it. I needed cheering up that day too, so marvellous timing! And the congratulations on the grades from my exams, and good luck wishes for uni are also appreciated darling!

Feeling Unsexy – Dealing with it or working on it?

Today I received an unwelcome surprise from Mother Nature. Now this may be too TMI for some, but I’ll gloss over it, naturally! Essentially, Aunt Flo shouldn’t have arrived for her monthly visit till Thursday, but she unpacked her bags and settled in today. This has made me undeniably cranky, but on the bright side explains why I’ve been a bitch for the last couple of days! (What a relief, it’s not just me being mean!)

It makes me cranky partially because of the aches and pains that come with it (but between my mug of sweet, milky tea, a giant aero bar and my hot water bottle, I’m working on that!) but also because of the enforced lack of sex. I could do with a really good seeing to right about now anyway so this was really badly timed. *growls*

Look, my tea. It’s fixing me, so it is! And it’s not a bad mug either! ;)

I know some women are happy – or at least willing at the bare minimum – to have sex during their period but I am not one of them. Firstly, in all honesty, the mess would put me off. Secondly though, I am generally a bundle of “eugh” during that time of the month, and the last thing on my mind is sex (I have to admit, that’s the only time of the month I can say that!)

Now when you’re single, feeling like that isn’t a problem. You can curl up with a hot water bottle and wrap yourself in a duvet and almost forget about sex and the like for the week… however when in a relationship, it’s not always that simple. I’m not saying we owe our partners sex or that we are obligated; but it’s difficult if they are horny as hell to tell them where to go! That isn’t, however, to say I never have told him to sod off when I’m feeling horrifically unsexy, but I feel fairly rotten for doing it. I mean, I'm sure there are plenty of times when he's felt tired or lathargic and for whatever reason didn't feel like it - but has still done it for me?

Yes, handjobs and blowjobs are always an option at that ‘time of the month’ – but I find that’s when the whole “feeling unsexy” issue really bites you on the arse. When you don’t feel sexy (or at least this is the case for me), you don’t feel like you’re capable, and what’s more – in my case at least – I know I get irritated. I don’t mean to, really, I don’t. In fact I hope this constitutes as an apology!

Part of this though, could be my own quirk – as I have blogged about before I am naturally very much towards the submissive side when it comes to sex and any kind of BDSM play, nothing makes me happier than to be told (nay, ordered, ideally!) what to do, get pushed around, restrained, spanked etc… Except with one thing. Blowjobs. I have mentioned briefly before that I have issues with them (I think I have at least!) I believe my problems stem from my very early sexual experiences, where oral was the one thing anyone tried to force me into. It was pure luck that I’m damned strong and could tell him where to go. Don’t get me wrong here – I don’t count it as anything terrible I’ve “endured” or anything, but it’s given me certain issues. Being aware of such things tends to help though and being into psychology, my way of thinking tends to work within how I can alter my own schemas etc and thus make my mind interpret the situation differently. I hope to report progress very soon. I feel like I have some making up to do to my man.

With all that said, I am curious as to how women feel – do you try to do things you really don’t feel like for the sake of knowing there are times when you know he can’t be arsed/is tired and still does it for you, or do you go with the fact that you really aren’t in the right mindset for it? And as for their partners; do you feel like they should just get on with it or do you think it’s fair enough if they feel unsexy and generally “off”?

 NK x

Popping my head back in...

Wow, I know I say this pretty much every time but it's been too long! I'll endeavour to be better, ladies and gents... I think that'll be much easier as the months progress.. for reasons that will become clear in the 'general life stuff' bit of this update! Okay, time for the aforementioned life stuff... College still progressing nicely... It can be a bit of a headache at times but I just have to remember that it is progressing and it is only a matter of time till it is done. Which makes me happy. Not that I hate college outright but the work we are doing seems almost insulting - university was amazing when I visited and I just want to be there now! Saying that though, my compulsory and pointless key skills type lessons end this week (or possibly next), one course ends in May and the other 2 in June. So I shall have progressively more time and be acting less and less like a headless chicken. What I am probably most excited about, though, is moving in July. We're sharing with friends, but it means me and the mr get to live together and I really can't wait! I have been lacking the funds to do much in the way of ordering from LH recently, which has been annoying to say the least, but I was looking the other day on some money saving forums about people "shopping from home" - meaning not buying new things and instead really looking at what they have in their cupboards and freezer, and using what they have... I think this logic can definately be applied to sextoys too. Over the coming weeks/months, I'll be going through the (sometimes overlooked) gadgets and gizmos I already possess and reviewing the ones I haven't already rated... Obviously, they'll get posted both here and on the LoveHoney website :) The only thing I have actually bought recently was the Hello Kitty Mini Vibrator which I honestly don't think I can possibly bring myself to corrupt... Very unlike me, I know. Though, then again... Who knows. Heh. Other things which I'll have to go into in upcoming posts will be my long overdue giving of head (yes, I was a blowjob virgin till a few weeks ago... no joke) and the book I just bought (and of course the free toy that's coming with it). I may even do a review of the shoes I bought (I only bought them due to a comment on the LoveHoney Forums...

 NK x