A Little Pill Update

Hello folks!

Jesus, a whole month since I last blogged?! It cannot be!

Life stuff first - it's my birthday in 2 days - I'll be 21!!! I can't wait!

In other news, I have gone on the pill. I know that may seem an odd thing to share, but contraceptives are an important part of sex, unless you want to have nippers!

In reality though, the reason I mention this is more to do with my feelings about it and how I've found it thus far... Admittedly I've not been on it very long, butI thought I'd share my experience thus far. I am taking Dianette, btw.

My biggest concerns about it were the possibility of it making pre-existing depression etc flare up (I do have a bit of a history with that kind of stuff..) and also a concern that it could cause a loss of libido - I'd always said if either of those happened, id come off it pretty much immediately.. After all, the former is too important for quality of life and the latter is the whole point of me taking the pill anyway - sex!

I did a bit of reading about the pill in general and more specifically dianette on the intarwebs before starting them, and all I seemed to read was negative - people who found they got emotional or depressed, suffered a lack of sex drive, or a number of other things and for whatever reason, hated it... It was a little daunting but I pressed ahead.

So, what do I think so far?

I'm really happy with it right now! I haven't noticed any low mood kick in - if anything it's been the opposite! I'd say my moods have improved and Im feeling sunnier since I started on it. As for libido, my boyfriend commented that it 'certainly hasn't affected that!" - which I'd agree with to an extent... I'd possibly go as far as to say that this weekend just gone we had some of the best sex we've had, ever! I don't know if it's feeling secure in being on a reliable contraceptive, if its had some chemical effect and increased my libido, or if its just because i love it when he comes inside me (oh god do i love that, really...) but it's been amazing. If i'd known how good it'd be, i'd have done it ages ago!

Fingers crossed this holds up!

NK x

Just a Quick Explanation of Absence.

A brief update from me, and annoyingly 'life-based' it is too... Recent low mood stuff seems to be spilling over into sex life right now, I feel so sorry for R, he must be feelinglike nothing he does is right - though I have appologised for it all and he says there's nothing to appologise for. I really am very lucky to have such an understanding boyfriend... But if nothing else, I'd really like this anxiety/mood crap to go so i can pounce on him <3 cause I'm actually rather fond of that... and right now, it's no good. :( A slightly :( post today guys. Better ones will follow soon enough, I promise.

NK x

Ann Summers Rampant Rabbit Heart Throb: A Review

Good morning my lovelies. I have been bad. Again. (Hard to believe, I know, but bear with me...) You know how I said last time "Oh, I really can't afford any more new toys, the spending has to stop... yadayada" well that didn't exactly go to plan. I stopped at Ann Summers yesterday and bought the Rampant Rabbit Heart Throb. Now, I normally buy pretty much all my toys from LoveHoney (as you may have noticed), however what with the throbbing action being totally different to anything on the market, Ann Summers clearly saw that and patented it to themselves! I can't blame them, and I suspect any company would have done the same, but more on that later... On to my thoughts!

Rampant Rabbit Heart Throb

Things I Love about the Heart Throb: (1) I think the biggest thing has to be that the sensations are totally different. A big factor in why I bought it was because I thought about how I feel when I climax and right after, and I always do the whole contracting, throbbing, spasmy thing... I thought if there is a vibrator to replicate that, it has to be good. I'm also not always sold on a vibrating shaft, I sometimes get a little numbed by that so a different sort of shaft stimulation seemed like a good idea. (2)The material it's covered in is *gorgeous*. Really, it is. If you have a store anywhere near you, go and stroke one if they have models out to touch. It's possibly the nicest feeling vibe I've used in a long time! (3) Multi function rabbit vibrations; the rabbit bit (clitoral stimulator) has several speeds and pulses, not the ridiculously long list that some seem to go for these days, but equally better than the old low/med/high that the old Rabbits used to go for. Things I hate about the Heart Throb: (1) Now, you're warned about this on the box, so there is an indication it may happen, but... The throbbing action stops if it is gripped too tightly. Of course, that is likely- especially as you get closer to orgasm! I've found there is a level it can be pulled out to to get it working and still be pleasurable on me, but many might find this a huge problem. Yeah, just the one "hate"; but it's quite a big one tbh. I also really like that this vibrator doesnt really need to be pulled and pushed and thrusted or whatever like most - for me I find the throbbing action and clitoral vibrations are more than enough, especially with the multispeeds. Some people have said the rabbit is too flexible, or that the ears don't sit right... I did have a few positioning issues, but for me, all that really took to fix was spreading my lips a little more with my free hand... Which personally I find pretty erotic anyway, so it was hot enough to just feed into the whole thing ;) All in all, I don't know if I like the throbbing monopoly in the marketplace too much - the motor issues are probably teething problems with a new type of mechanism, but the easiest way to overcome that in any subsequent models would surely be for many manufacturers to be working on it, not one to be hogging it? I understand why they did it, don't get me wrong, but still. I feel like it's certainly new and different and something to be experienced... But I'm not totally convinced it's earned it's near-£50 price tag. A welcome newcomer to the toy box though. All things considered, I'm glad I gave it a go, but I do feel it could do with some work - so perhaps a Rampant Rabbit Heart Throb 2.0 could make me a very happy girlie?

NK x

A Hole in my Pocket...

I dislike being so poor intensely. I had recognised my ever deepening lack of funds but I don't think it had really truely hit home till the other night when doing my sums for home much student grant/loan etc I'll actually get. It is terrifying, but I really need to try not to let that get to me too much, I know that. There are a few things bring a bit extra cash in (possible tax refund, and a couple of things I returned after buying that are going to get me refunds there too) but I'm still apprehensive. It does mean though, that I need to be sensible about NOT buying more toys for the time being. I'm starting to wonder if that really is like an addiction for me these days, I find it hard not to buy them! Sensibly though, there are a lot of toys in my toy drawer... And in boxes... And under my bed. Heh. I seem to be hornier than usual at the moment, running at an average of 2 wanks a day. Not that it's a bad thing, especially when I got the Lelo Mia the other day, and what with it being rechargable I don't have to worry about the batteries running out! It goes without saying though, that I'm pretty much dying to get to July and move in with my other half, sex on tap!

NK x

Come 'Closer'...

I find it interesting how our senses are linked.
Sex, obviously, tends to focus on touch as the most obvious stimulated sense, but stimulation of our other senses is what makes good sex become mind blowing sex.

Thinking about that, today I thought I'd touch (no pun intended there) on the topic of sexy songs.

Some songs are intentionally sexy, that's their whole reason for being. When it's done right, it can be pretty damn good - in the example (in my opinion) of NIN - Closer. It's unashamedly a slice of pure sex... Pure, raw, animalistic fucking, in lyrical form. Undeniably though, there are some that don't hit the mark... for the sake of my sanity, I won't go into them too much here!

My new obsession right now is with Kings of Leon "Closer" (which I swear is a total co-incidence on the track name!) It's said - online - that the song is about a lovesick vampire and I can definately go along with that- on listening to the lyrics it does sound remarkably vampiric. The whole feel of the song is so sensual, so erotic. It gets me hot, to say the least. (You might have noticed, heh)

I also have some that are less obvious - like Spitfire by The Prodigy (don't ask me - I think it's rooted in the soaring female vocals - maybe my mind's converting that to orgasmic screams?)

In fact, I just clicked 'play' on Closer (the Kings of Leon one) for about the 10th time this evening. I can feel my breathing getting deeper and my mouth getting dry... I suddenly become aware of my pulse and a longing to be ravaged and bitten...

http://www.last.fm/music/Kings+of+Leon/_/Closer (go, listen!)

NK x