Where I've Been...

Nowhere especially, is the short answer. But between stressing about flat/house viewings, tenancy applications and insurance quotes, things have been more than a little hectic. My stress levels are through the roof and that's more than a little offputting.

The main thing sending my anxiety stratospheric is the whole house move malarky. We have just under 4 weeks left on this contract, and ideally want to leave before that - if nothing else, it makes moving easier. We still have no place to move to. We have the problematic situation of being mature students with monthly income - apparently, that's just no good... there are the agents who outright won't even speak to us, and then there are those who take our applications but pick DSS candidates over us as it's guaranteed rent payment. Things feel very hard right now.

Then, there is the job stuff. Stuff being my lack of one. I really need some income of my own, and we need more cash as a unit generally. To live right now has led to debts going right up - which is exactly the sort of thing that gets to me, so that's hard to handle too. I have a lot of applications in for posts at the moment though - so I'm allowing myself to be at least a tiny bit hopeful.

Finally, there's Uni. I don't know how I feel about it right now, and no-one seems to quite understand my point. Well, some do, to an extent at least. But.. Essentially I'm meant to be moving course soon, and starting at year 1 again. I'm 6.5k down in terms of student debt, and no further forward. Add the credit card and overdraft to that and it isn't nice. And my new course might be better, but I find it hard to know - it's not something I've ever studied before, so maybe it's just another gamble that probably won't even pay off.

But right now it's the first time I've known so many to be proud of me. And I don't want to let anyone down, so I have to find a way.

But that's mostly why I've been quiet. My mojo's been a bit... screwed, recently. It's been hard to write or think or test, And I feel guilty about that.

I'm sure I'll be back on fighting form soon.

NK x

Day 35 in the Student Madhouse...

...And 2 of the housemates are trying not to hear the sound of me being spanked. In reality there was no Geordie voice over this morning, but there probably should have been. I'm not actually sure if either of them heard (they weren't in surrounding rooms) but it's not really possible to be spanked quietly is it? Well, if it is, it's fairly pointless as to really get a decent tingle going on, there is pretty much automatically an accompanying "thwack". The initial spanks felt divine. After some time, I turned over and R worked my clit and pushed two fingers inside of my wetness... Then, feeling him spread me open and vulnerable, I feel another spank land, this time on my pussy. Several strikes later and I could have screamed in pure, ecstatic pleasure. Seeing his cock at face level, I needed to taste it. To lick him and suck him. To run my tongue around the head, and down his shaft, and draw him into my mouth, finally feeling his member grow just that extra bit harder, and as he came, feel his load shoot into my mouth... Needless to say, I'm thinking I have found the secret to my enjoyment of giving head. No, not being spanked (though that is more than welcome, especially with how hot the pussy spanking got me), but feeling in control. Me controlling the situation made it erotic, enjoyable and best of all, orgasmic. So, here's to more situations like this morning. Many more.

NK x

P.S. I'm hoping to be back on tomorrow or so, either with a more discussion-y blogpost, or a review. Either way there'll be something soon :)

P.P.S Whoever bought me the Durex Pina Colada Lube from my LoveHoney Wishlist is adorable, and really cheered me up last Saturday when I received it. I needed cheering up that day too, so marvellous timing! And the congratulations on the grades from my exams, and good luck wishes for uni are also appreciated darling!